I'm borrowing my friends' post title again because I am, again, wordless...
I have an explanation for my tired, draggy, sluggish, and heavy state of being. It's called hypothyroidism. My lab work came back, my doctor called me, and I'm off to see an endocrinologist.
What's interesting to me is that I've spent most of my adult life downplaying the role of the thyroid. I think people, in general, often suspect their thyroid as a cause for weight gain. I think it's also often used as a scapegoat for weight gain and as a deterrent for weight loss. I think that if you've never had a thyroid issue, you should never underestimate how crappy an underachieving thyroid can make you feel. Lesson learned.
I also learned that its almost impossible to get an endocrinologist to see you without a referral. Even with a PPO. I learned that cruciferous vegetables and soy products can suppress the thyroid and that selenium can help to restore its function. Tomorrow morning, I'll learn more about my own solutions, both in the short and long term.
Although I still feel like I'm in a perpetual and cloudy haze, it's nice to know that there is a reason that I've felt so bad lately. And the fact that it's treatable, makes me all the more optimistic that some clarity and focus will return again very soon. Wish me luck.